Embryo update, transfer date, and new med

It's been a quiet couple of days since the retrieval.  Recovery took a little longer than anticipated but I'm all good to go this morning aside from a very ugly bruise on the inside of my arm from the IV.

I've been waiting with baited breath since Monday for the call from the embryology lab on what's been happening with the 8 eggs they retrieved.  I finally got that call this morning (bless fully while my monkeys were both at school).  Of the 8 eggs they retrieved, 5 were mature.  Of the 5 that were mature, only 3 fertilized.  This is disappointing in my eyes since I had hoped for better results.  It's also a little scary for me because the doctor wants to push them to day 5 to get the best of the best.  Given that I only have 3, I'm taking a big risk that at least 2 will make it this far.  It also means that there's a very high likelihood that I won't have any to freeze, making this my only shot to find that missing piece to our puzzle.

This is where I have to really trust the judgement of my doctor.  If she's sure that all will be well, then I have to be too.  This is also where the support of my friends and family and my faith in God is very crucial.  Knowing so many are rooting for this to work and praying for guidance lifts my spirits and keeps me going when I want to wallow in self pity and fear.

Today is also my birthday!  And on this day, my present is.....a shot in the butt!  That's right, today I start my progesterone in oil shot.  This shot will help support the embryo when it's transferred and will also support any pregnancy that may occur.  It's one I anticipate that I will be on for awhile, and while not an easy one by any stretch of the imagination, totally worth it.

Years ago when I had thought about how my future family would look I had said I wanted to be done having children by the time I turned 30.  This was a good possibility since I got married at 23.  Today as I turn 34, I am reminded very clearly how our life plans can change and that it's okay to revise that plan to include things that you never thought were possible.